HAPPY JUNETEENTH! For those of you that may not know, this is an American holiday that commemorates the abolition of slavery in the U.S. state of Texas, and more generally the emancipation of enslaved African Americans throughout the former confederacy of the southern United States. It’s basically the black peoples Independance Day and even though I am an American, I don’t celebrate July 4th anymore. I have decided to make June 19th the holiday I would celebrate for myself in place of that especially with all of the things that have been happening in my country lately.
Today, I heard a quote on a Netflix documentary that said, “there are particular moments that define each one of us… We may not know it at the time, but we learn it later”. The last 4 months of 2020 have definitely made that phrase resonate more than ever, and every day I have made small changed to my habits and beliefs that have shaken up the core of everything I have believed in the past. It feels so good to be young, healthy, powerful, and full of new ideas. The life I live has been so incredible and knowing it will only get better makes me so happy. I hope all of you are continuing to stay healthy and practice social distancing and will continue to send good vibes and positivity your way.
I have officially gone down the rabbit hole and there is no going back. Today, I have consumed so much new information that has overwhelmed me and I don’t even know what to do. Just when I think things can’t get any crazier, I find something else out, and 2020 truly has taken the cake with the plot twists. This new wealth of information is absolutely insane, but I love a good story more than anything so I am hooked. Being made aware of so much new information that I don’t even want to talk about online is so weird on my mental but in a good way. Processing things a little at a time and keeping my fingers crossed that things work out faster than I originally hoped. Life is so crazy and I love it!
I have always believed in making an 11:11 wish an these days they seem to come true even faster than before! I use to always say that I got lucky, or that I know I’m stressing my guardian angel due to my crazy life. While both of these phrases are still constantly in my use, I think that it has been my actions that allowed things to work themselves out much more than I give myself credit for throughout the years. Words are so much more powerful than people realize, and I have stated taking what I say, how I say it, and the energy I put out into the world much more seriously. Speaking positive affirmations to yourself, as well as to those around you is important. There are several small bad habits I have had to unlearn during the last few months that I said so much out of habit, I didn’t even realize the damage I was unknowingly doing. Being more mindful of not only what I say, but how I say it and sticking to this new lifestyle of good vibes an good energy. Pep talks from my favorites have meant even more now, than before with everything going on, an there is a tiny part of me that has finally gotten a little homesick. It is still so much going on at the moment and I definitely think everything happens for a reason and exactly as it should despite what people may think. I encourage each of you to spend a day being aware of the things you say to yourself. It may come as a surprise how much you stand in your own way and beat yourself up more than you should. Sending good vibes everyones way and thank you so much for continuing to take time out of your day to spend a little time on my piece of the internet.
Everything around me has slowed sown tremendously in the last 48 hours and it has been so nice. Taking time to unplug more and more because there is so much negative energy being put out into the world these days. Everybody is adjusting so rapidly by no choice of their own and it has been a lot to process. Pausing more for the simple moments and embracing the silence is a great feeling. I have always been a person that enjoys their own company, so it has been refreshing to have an abundance of it. Social distancing is a concept I think I can permanently get behind.
The Lunar Eclipse is TONIGHT and I am too geeked!!! The more I research this stuff, the more I love it, and it has grown even more interesting to me, for the fact that it was a subject that was considered so taboo when I was growing up. A lunar eclipse occurs when the Earth comes in between Moon and Sun. It causes the Moon to move into the shadow of Earth causing it to appear darkened. This particular eclipse is called the “strawberry moon” and I should be able to witness it from the Carribbean tonight. My toxic trait that I love, and will never stop doing, is asking people what their zodiac signs are and categorizing them accordingly. The more I do it, the funnier it has become to me because it is surprisingly accurate. Most of my favorites are water signs (Cancer’s Scorpio’s or Pieces) but as an Aquarius moon/rising, I have finally started looking into all of it more since I did my birth chart. So many things are affected by the sun and moon and I truly believe that people are as well.
My aunt has used the farmers almanac for years to track the phases of the moon in order to cut my hair and to plant crops. I am a person that truly believes if I can wrap my head around reading a book that talks about a man being able to turn water into wine, and walk on water, I can believe that the sun and moon can effect me in a profound way. Usually, people start off as open minded children and are morphed by their surroundings into close minded adults. To a certain extent, people do seem to get stuck in their ways as they age, so I am determined to reverse that habit on myself. The older I get, the more I embrace my child like tendencies that I strayed away from in an attempt to be a “responsible adult”. I have learned that following the rules and doing things “the right way” is so overrated. Through this pandemic, I have been doing whatever I feel is best, and it is working out so much better for me. The way kids have no inhibitions and are so open minded is a concept adults should embrace more frequently in my opinion. I believe that everything is about balance, so taking care of all the things I need to get done as a responsible adult, then having all of the fun I would as a carefree kid is my new wave. I always loved the moon and researching it further has emerged me into a whole new world with a new perspective as far as using astrology to maneuver certain parts of my life. I have always said that life is short, but it is the longest thing we will ever do so live every day like it’s your last and you will never live a life with regrets. There is so much going on these days, but finding the happy moments that make it worth the madness are more important than ever. Stay saucy my friends and I will see y’all tomorrow.
It has taken me forever and a day to start back reading the Game of Thrones books, but I finally hopped back on today. With everything going on in the world, it has become mentally overwhelming to keep up with social media so I am using this time to read more. My current read is “A Clash of Kings” by George R. R. Martin. I completely fell in love with the Game of Thrones series and once it went off there was a gap that needed to be filled so I am reading the books. It is definitely taking much longer to finish than I expected, and I haven’t loved reading a series this much since Harry Potter! The attention to detail, amount of characters, and the plot twists that come out of nowhere is what has me hooked. Even though I watched all of the episodes, the books provide so much detail that the series failed to include. Once I finish this book, I think I may find a book club to join but for now feel free to add me on Goodreads “@TheAshleyBanks“. About to immerse myself back into this fantasy world and escape reality for a bit.
I have been having even more lengthy, deep conversations with my favorite people and it is definitely one of the things I have loved the most about the pandemic! Due to the nature of my job, small talk comes with the job description but it is one of my least favorite things to do. I love deep, intelligent, conversations that make you reconsider things. New outlooks, new perspectives, and unlearning bad habits has been an ongoing theme for me during the pandemic. This chaos has forced a lot of peoples hands, and as somebody who always has a backup plan, I have gotten more creative than ever. So many changes are happening in the world right now and I can’t even keep up with the rate of drastic changes at the moment… I personally LOVE change, but mentally accepting that the America I left behind in March will be nothing like the one I come back to is still so wild to me. All of the protests have really lit a fire underneath so many and the whole world is morphing into something new. There is no much negativity right now but major changes always come with major controversy. Listening to Auntie talk about the changes that were sparked throughout her generation have made it clear how much history really does repeat itself when I compare it to my generation. As a proud and slightly spoiled millennial, this pandemic has made me appreciate so many minor things I took for granted. Growing up in the country has come full circle for me and I really can thank my family for keeping me well rounded. Modern technology has truly changed the game and I still shake my head and laugh at thinking there was a time I had to unplug the house phone just to access to internet. Now fast forward to 2020 I am early ever an arms reach away from my smart phone and I reflect all the time about the good an bad things of having so much access. Anything can be researched online with the push of a button and even thought I grew up having to go to the library, the convenience of Google is extraordinary. With the pandemic it has its good and bad sides but I truly do believe there is still more good in the world if you know where to look.
Today officially marks my 50th post an I encourage everyone to checkout these hashtags an PULL TF up like Robyn told us to!! Celebrating with some wine and staying off social media more an more and focusing on the good today.
Watching the riots the last few days has grown even more difficult. For every peaceful protest out there, it seems as if there are twice as many instances of violence and appalling things popping up. There are people that are encouraging violence and those encouraging peace. There are those that would have been like Malcom X an those that would have been like Martin Luther King Jr. People are rioting, looting, and tearing America apart, and I can’t believe the way this is unfolding. I trusted my intuition an came to an island to get away from the madness an with the way things are headed… I am not leaving! The things I have seen on social media in the last 4 days, and the stories from people I know personally have solidified the things I feel deep down in my heart. This is a hot mess, and it has gotten so blurry as far as determining who is wrong or right and telling them how to express their pain at this point. 2020 has taken the cake for the plot twists I don’t think anybody saw coming. I feel like I am watching a movie for real because I cannot be there personally to add fuel to the fire or help put it out. The pandemic has forced me to stay neutral by default so I donated money for everything going on in Minnesota. When I finally do get back to the United States, I am not even sure that it will be a place I recognize anymore but I guess I will just have to wait an see….